I am getting my bike I think weds or thurs finally! Oye it was backordered and took forever. I have GREAT news...I got rid of Dr. Kurt Smith who turned into more of a lawyer than a doctor. His last conversation to me involved "I had a patient that came into the office and has seen 36 doctors for pain medication, so that is going to reflect on how I treat you now." and "My license is more important than you." Then he decided to cover himself by stating "I am not a pain specialist," when on the website it states "PAIN SPECIALIST" and when I was referred to him he accepted my case as a "PAIN DOCTOR." And I think his business card even says it. Whatever. And while I understand what he was trying to say to me, what he ended up saying was very innappropriate and he should have worked with me to come to an agreement. But he seemed too have misplaced his heart. So I got rid of him.
So - by the luck of the draw, or that something bigger than me realized I was beginning to give up on life due to the mindset Dr. Smith put me in over the past year, making me feel worthless and hopeless with his lack of compassion and understanding and allowing my pain to grow to the point I hsd withdrawn from everything but work because I was constantly in body pains. As I was saying, by luck or who knows my rheuma mentioned another doctor he said may be able to help me locally.
But I was not able to see him until August, but I was able to get a cancellation spot, I saw him last Friday and he immediately brought up improving my quality of life as that is the most important thing. I was so grateful, and he discussed that we needed to work together on this and he would not make any decisions for me by himself.
It was a long appt, and he listened to everything I said and never made me feel stupid and made me feel hope again. We're going to have to figure out what to do, but I told him I want to keep going down on the Fent patch because I'm tired of managing it. He said that was fine with him, and that he would like to try a new medication called Nucyntha in place of Oxycodone. Then as time goes, we will make changes until my pain is better under control so I can live my life again. I hope this works out, I don't know what to do otherwise.
I'd say more but I dont want this too long as talking about pain gets old, just like having it. I now can say, acute excrutiating pain is not as bad as constant, lingering pain that never gives you a break.
08/29/07 Lupus Diagnosed, 2005 History ITP treated with Rituxan
Current Tx: Benlysta infusion every 4 weeks ongoing since April 2011, Plaquenil, and Vicodin 10/325mg PRN, Ambien 5mg PRN.