Hi Gen, sorry to hear you are experiencing a bad time at the moment.
Having platelets @ 5,000. Feeling tired, worn out, frustrated and depressed would be no fun. For you to feel you have no drive right now is definately understandable.
However, like you say "its times like this I need to just keep pushing on".
I once read at times like this it pays to focus on the future, because thats where you will spend the rest of your life. So move on from the past, deal with NOW no matter how hard,and focus on the future.
"I know, it's easier said than done".
The people who recently lost their homes & loved ones in the mid-West of USA to tornados will be saying the same thing. Here in New Zealand a place called Christchurch has had earth quakes in Sept, Dec, Feb, & today. The city centre is gone, factories. jobs, homes and loved ones. They started to rebuild & the next one hits some where else. No power, sewrage or water supply to parts of the city, roads, bridges and buildings damaged. It's now winter in NZ & Christchurch, and they got another earth quake today registering 6-0 magniture. People are tired, worn out, frustrated and frightened. But on TV tonight people said they will rebuild. They are looking forward to the future, with bigger and stronger buildings which will withstand the earthquakes.
Their optimism is amazing and contagious. We have to play the hand life gives us, as the saying goes "what does not break us makes us stronger".
The purpose of writing this Gen, is to give you hope and encouragement. To let you know that you are not alone. Please keep us in touch with your progress, when you feel up to it. Wishing you plenty of platelets and good times ahead.

Benny.