I don't know what to do. I'm so damn overwhelmed- this is what always happens. First they scramble my brains to the point of near insensibility on prednisone, and then they slap me with a bunch of REALLY IMPORTANT, REALLY SCARY choices that have to be made RIGHT AWAY. I'm sick of this. I've been on pred FOREVER, my brain is so fried I can hardly function- and he just fussed because I forgot to go from 20 to 15 and went from 20 to 10 instead. I was on 100/day for almost TEN WEEKS, jeez I cannot get off this garbage fast enough... but now he really, REALLY wants me back to 15 until my platelets improve from one of the billion or so other things we're trying. SO- here's the crib notes-
I've tried and failed everything, from Cytoxan to danazol to vincristine to Promacta to... oh heck, I forget everything. Nplate worked for years but crapped out last fall, I spent about 6 of 8 weeks, 4 weeks consecutive, in the hospital, getting out most recently on May 4. We tried EVERYTHING- all the stuff that failed still failed, platelet transfusion worked which was BIZARRE, but basically we sent me home to wait in a bubble wrap room for Tavalisse- which does not appear to be working, after about 3 weeks at the higher dose I was still at 7 today. So doc is freaking, wants me to do IVIG on Tues. and Wed. and also do CHOP- it's a chemo drip of a mixture of Cytoxan, Adriamycin which I THINK is an antibiotic but I have to look that up, Vincristine, and Pred. Even though Cytoxan and Vincristine have already failed for me, and pred just keeps me from dying but doesn't actually make things any better... but doc has only had "one other patient I thought would die, and this worked for her". GREAT. Great, that builds confidence. I know that sometimes things that don't work on their own work in combos, but does anyone have any experience with this? Is he nuts? He's willing to write me a 'scrip for Avatrombopag, which while not (yet) approved for ITP is the study drug I took about 10-12 years ago that worked for me then. It's gotten FDA approval for something liver disease related- he said "Oh, in that case, your liver looks bad to me"- but he doubts it'll work since both Promacta and Nplate failed. I say heck, Promacta is ELtrombopag and it never worked at all so maybe AVAtrombopag is just enough different to work on ME. He's willing to give it a shot but still wants to do the CHOP treatment, and if those all fail then I'll be looking for a drug trial I can get into. It would be so much easier if this just killed me and got it over with, but clearly my body is NOT ready to let go so OK, that works too. But damn- I had a brain bleed in the hospital, and then the first platelet transfusion put me into anaphylactic shock and almost killed me, I could really, REALLY deal with a break. Let's not get in to hubby throwing me out in between the nine day hospital stay and the four week hospital stay- ain't he just special? Loser bozo. He let his fear of medical bills rule his brain- for god's sake, I have INSURANCE, you IDIOT. No matter, I'm not going there. Sorry. The rest is enough, eh? Advice on CHOP- or any of the rest of it- is VERY welcome, I am so overwhelmed.