Hello Paige. I was in the same boat in July 2020. Perfectly healthy, 54 years old having never been a patient in a hospital except for my birth and having my tonsils removed back in the 70's Out of the blue I started bruising everywhere. The bruising increased by the day and I felt weaker and more fatigued each day. Finally after someone at work told me I look really bad and that I had better get things checked out I did. When the CBC result came in I was told to go to the emergency room immediately because my platelet levels were at 2. This was July 2020. I didnt know what that meant but I feared the worst. I was in hospital for 6 days. Multiple IVIG's, a platelet transfusion, and high dose prednisone got my levels up to around 40. I was released but within a week the level was back down to 3. This time I was experience gum bleeding and had developed horrible looking black blood blisters in my mouth. I was put in ICU for 4 days. It was then decided to embark upon a treatment of 4 Rituximab weekly infusions as well as a weekly Nplate injection.
I did the 4 Ritux infusions and continued with the weekly Nplate infusions until November 2020(4 months) It took until around that November for my platelets to reach and maintain a level over 100. By Feb 2021 my levels were over 200 and have remained there ever since. Thats 2 years.
Every case is different. Different physicians will embark upon different treatments and therapies based on their experience and the individual being treated. I suppose I was fortunate in that the treatment chosen for me eventually worked exceptionally well. There is hope. The first 6 months after diagnosis, especially the first couple of months, were horrible. Nothing worse than seeing your platelet level rise enough to be released from hospital and thinking(without yet fully understanding ITP) well I guess thats over only to have your platelet level crater and have to go back in. It was very discouraging and depressing. In the end, knowing what I know now it was no where near as serious as I feared at the time(platelet levels near zero are serious of course but I was in that range for only a couple of weeks) and was more of an inconvenience.
Its going to be difficult for you having to deal with the roller coaster CBC results. After my second Ritux infusion my level reached around 110. I was ecstatic. I thought well Im over this ITP stuff. A week later the CBC before my third Ritux infusion had my level back down at 30. I was devastated. Luckily my level continued increasing after that setback but I kept waiting and expecting the platelet levels to crater for the next six months or so but thankfully they never did. Honestly, at the one year mark I no longer thought much about it. Now, almost two and a half years later its like it never even happened. I visit this forum usually, when I remember, every 6 months or so just to see whats up.
To sum it up. Being confused, worried, and even a bit distressed and even depressed at this stage is perfectly normal. In time however you will find yourself less confused, worried and distressed by the day until you reach the point I am at now. It will be like it never even happened. Take care