I have had ITP my whole life - it was never really a problem, until I got pregnant with my first.
My platelets dropped steadily throughout my pregnancy - at one point hitting as low as 20,000. I was given IVIG treatment, perfect response, perfect baby boy born 2009.
He needed Brother!!! Got pregnant again, and my platelets never dropped quite as low, Doctors started IVIG before that happened. I again, responded well, another perfect baby boy born 2011.
We wanted a third! We were ready to get pregnant and all - and went to consult my Doctor first. Platelets were at 120,000... we talked about being pregnant again - and she basically said that my platelets were sure to act up again (which we knew). She said she "thought" she could treat it again, but there are "no garantees". She knew we wanted to hear a yes, or a no, and she said she could not give us an answer, as there are risks, and she is unsure of what the outcome will be. My Husband asked her the worse case scenario (he is an anxious person, always thinks "worse-case", which led her to talking about internal hemorrhaging, and really scared Hubby.
I feel it very much so in my heart to have one more baby. We just have so much love to give, and so much love in our hearts. Watching our Sons together, and love each other is just the most amazing thing I could ever have imagined.
I am a Lawyer. When I was pregnant with our first, Michael - I was on the waiting list for every daycare. Then I saw his face, and that was it. I have reorientated my entire practice to work from home, not always easy, but definitely worth being with them every day.
We have a four bedroom house, and walking by that empty bedroom breaks my heart to imagine it never being put to use. I can't bear the thought of getting rid of the boys' things... As I put them away in storage, I smiled thinking someone else would one day use them.
Our boys are happy, and healthy. We are just loving being parents so much, and we are really good at it. Everything is in order, organised, taken care of and we are having so much fun. I can just close my eyes, and see us all camping in a few years, or doing other excursions - and I see three little ones!
I am sure the ladies can relate - wanting a child is a very strong, profound desire... and I have a feeling it will be really hard, if not impossible to shake. There is a part of me that feels extremely greedy, as there are many women who cannot even have one - I am already double blessed, and want more!!!!!
Hubby is worried, and would rather not "rock the boat". He wants another child, but fears the risks. He doesn't want me to be unhappy, so he would be willing to go through this again.
I feel I could do this again, but of course, now that I have two angel-boys at home, I can't imagine doing anything that puts me at risk of never being with them again.
Would really love your thoughts everyone...
